Saturday, September 15, 2007
Tonight.. I have turned to my trusted JD..
I remember someone once asked me what can drinking solve. I couldnt find an answer. Seems like i have found it. Its solves one problem. It puts you to sleep. Along with it, there are many bonuses. It makes your trouble seem just alittle further away. Stops whatever pain you are in. One may think its stupid. But when it is in arm's reach and there is really nothing else you can turn to at that moment. It is the most sane and practical thing to do.
I haven't blogged for a damn long time. And I have no idea why I am doing this too. But i guess 7am and ard 7 or 8 shots of JD can make you pour your heart out.
Chloe is her name. Just typing her name, took me a while. It just hurts so much. I cant find a reason why it hurts.
I have so much to say about her. But does it really matter what I say? I feel so shitty she left. why treat me like i am special when i am not.. i know i am not.. I am not a fool. I know the lies I was served.
I know the times you went out with some other guy. I know you were out with some one else the very next day after that conversation. I know you were out with some one else yesturday.
Its really none of my concern now. Somehow its not really easy to "not give a shit". But fuck that. Mark my words, I am on the edge but it takes alot more than this to make me fall. Should you return one day, I will no longer be here. This entry will be my testimonial to it.
I have no idea who still reads this blog. I have no idea how long has it been since i last updated it. But should Chloe stumble across this blog one day. This entry will let her know exactly how I feel. She would probably won't even acknowledges she knows me.
Long live JD.
I didnt do anything to deserve this.
Allianimus speaks.3:46 PM