Life Of Allianimus

Monday, April 25, 2005

I have had alot to think about recently.. mostly about me.. the things ive done.. the things i might live to regret... and im gonna to stop something that has bothered the many years of my life.. i used to love doing that.. but it has also cost me someone i love with everything... therefore if decided to stop it and not look back... and ive also come to realise the path to self destruction cannot be blamed on anyone but myself.. ive no idea why i love doing it so much... some friends think im insane.. but its what i love to do... to feel life in my own hands... to choose... anyway.. ive also relearned a valuable lesson... trust... ive taught myself to only trust a person once... and if this trust is betrayed.. it will recieve a 2nd chance... probably im mean.. but its a lesson... and this lesson is applied to me... someone once trusted me... and i betrayed her trust not once but twice... im thankful that im given a 2nd chance.. and im not surprised i might not be given a third.. but i hope that she would give me just one more chance.. ive learned my lesson.. and i might live to regret it... for it is something that can only happen once in a lifetime... something that i want to hold on... something i will cherish... and if this chance comes.. pls.. let me know... and i wanna thank some special friends that are with me recently... auntie for lending her ears.. fuann, vick, roy and surain for the late nights up.. making me really tired.. so i wont think of anything else.. thanks... im really tired now... badminton till 5am? only u guys can make it happen..

Allianimus speaks.2:23 PM