Life of Allianimus

out out out!

2008-02-07T09:53:00.000-08:00

Its the Chinese New Year already. I know I have missed New Year and Xmas.

New year-

Spent it with band. Spent most of the time walking around. Originally we wanted to go Double O. But cover charge was 40 bucks. So we decided to find some other plans. Slowly we made our way to Central @ Clark Quay. Bought some vodka and headed over to Fort Canning. I drank my heart out that night. I can't remember how much I drank. I barely remember what happened that night. Just some flashes. Like running across the road(would like to thank the band for their care). And falling over Beng while attempting to jump over him. Then i sorta blacked out. I woke up at loon's place on the cold hard floor and I really mean cold.

Xmas -

Don't even have flashes of how I spent Xmas. Maybe when I remember something I will put it here. But one thing is for sure! I was drinking.

Last but not least Chinese New Year -

No drinking this time round. Or at least not yet. Because I have to drive the family around. Lots of AngBow and gambling. Manage to win a bit. But my Dad lost a lot. But its ok because the money is still circulated around the family. I don't know whats the plans for tmr but I really want to stay home. One thing about this family events is that I can't smoke. Which makes me wonder if I can really quit smoking.

Moving on to other events -

2nd in RIA Remix comp. Hopefully 1st the next time round. The band used part of the money to buy Loon's present. I think she likes it.

Chloe has left me once again. I now know the reason behind why she always go toilet so long. Because she is calling someone else. Its easy for people to tell you not to feel so sad. But it's really not that simple. After all the lies and pain I still chose to be with her. However it seems like it's different now. We have not talked in months just a few lines in msn. I still feel sad whenever I see her on my msn. I skipped nearly month of school so I would not see her and give myself some time to pull it together. Anyway I think its quite easy for her to forget about me judging by the fact that no prove of me ever existed in her life. Masked pictures, its really a damn good job though. A pic we took together now totally seems like she is alone in the pic. Some pain cannot be described through words this is one of those pain.

"Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings"
- Led Zeppelin, Stairway to Heaven

the bet

2007-10-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

A bet with myself. The promise to hunt me down. A bet to see if it will be kept.

dont look back

2007-10-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

If it doesnt remind me
I dont really care what it is
I dont wanna love what i need to forget
Take it all
Turn it into something else
For if im not reminded
It doesnt hurt
If I dont look back
Yesturday is just Yesturday
Everytime i start to believe
It is taken away from me
I wont know if its true
Maybe someday I will
Till then
Dont look back

My jack daniels and me..

2007-09-15T15:46:00.000-07:00

Tonight.. I have turned to my trusted JD..

I remember someone once asked me what can drinking solve. I couldnt find an answer. Seems like i have found it. Its solves one problem. It puts you to sleep. Along with it, there are many bonuses. It makes your trouble seem just alittle further away. Stops whatever pain you are in. One may think its stupid. But when it is in arm's reach and there is really nothing else you can turn to at that moment. It is the most sane and practical thing to do.

I haven't blogged for a damn long time. And I have no idea why I am doing this too. But i guess 7am and ard 7 or 8 shots of JD can make you pour your heart out.

Chloe is her name. Just typing her name, took me a while. It just hurts so much. I cant find a reason why it hurts.

I have so much to say about her. But does it really matter what I say? I feel so shitty she left. why treat me like i am special when i am not.. i know i am not.. I am not a fool. I know the lies I was served.

I know the times you went out with some other guy. I know you were out with some one else the very next day after that conversation. I know you were out with some one else yesturday.

Its really none of my concern now. Somehow its not really easy to "not give a shit". But fuck that. Mark my words, I am on the edge but it takes alot more than this to make me fall. Should you return one day, I will no longer be here. This entry will be my testimonial to it.

I have no idea who still reads this blog. I have no idea how long has it been since i last updated it. But should Chloe stumble across this blog one day. This entry will let her know exactly how I feel. She would probably won't even acknowledges she knows me.

Long live JD.
I didnt do anything to deserve this.

cheryl..

2006-10-07T12:35:00.000-07:00

Her voice like an Angel's...

I've been recruited into Jammers Arena!! And we have formed a new band... The Novelties..

The story goes something like this.... This girl i've been checking out in school turned out to be in the same CCA im in.. anyway.. weeks after i got the news i've been recruited into JA, the seniors planned a chalet for us... thats when i first heard her sing... it rocks...

Weeks later... we decided to form a band.. and i agreed to play for them...

I just cant get enough of her voice... sounds so good...

well this story though like any other... doesnt go ALL SMOOTH... she has a bf of coz... well its been a long time since i last met someone that makes my heart race like she does... every time i wanna speak to her.. i just cant find the right words...

Anyway i just thought it is worth a shot...

Worldcup

2006-07-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

Alright so now... FRANCE AGAINST PORTUGAL.... my thoughts on this match.... Portugal will be quite a force to be reckon with.. why? SIMAO and Ronaldo... In their previous two meetings... both games ended 1 - 1 draw... with the addition of this 2 players... will things change? In theory... yes... but France with Zidane being in such great form... turning the hands of time back to 98... France's defense was able to totally shut down Brazil's offense... yes i do mean TOTALLY... and send them packing... Comparing Brazil and Portugal.. Portugal might be alittle faster den Brazil... In my opinion their speed and workrate will cause a problem to France.. probably in the 2nd half of the game... From this.. I believe that France... will have to keep possesion, play good passing, wear their opponents out.. this is followed by a perfect longball from Zidane to none other den the FAST AND FURIOUS offside beating Henry! with a cool headed finish right into the back of the net.... ok... all the non-France supporters will be going wth is this guy blabbering about? what im saying is PLAIN AND SIMPLE... FRANCE will win Portugal, with pure class and tactics... who needs C.Ronaldo and Simao... both running to the ball with no idea what to do with it? heh....

Met up with Stella... hmm.. lost for words... can only think of... pretty... hehe...

We are good friends... Happy? Sad? Hope? Meaningless? i have no idea... i do have a confession...

Im bored..

2006-06-14T11:20:00.000-07:00

Im just bored. Thats why im here. Its 2.27am kinda waiting for the Germany match. Anyway, thats only part of the reason im here. Lets see.. do you know someone who speaks his/her mind without thinking what it could? ok i know some1 like that.. to add on to that.. this person.. has the worst possible attitude ever..

so let me see.. this person asked me out... so i agreed... but due to some real minor incident, this person just took off in the midst of it all... worst part is.. i was left with this person's fren whom i barely knew. Now try to imagine how that feels. hmmmm akward..

now this person later came home and pretended that nothing happened. fwah.. i nearly wanted to kill some1.. bleah.. enuff...

spoiling my WORLDCUP MOOD!! oh yea.. France is gonna be world champs!!! right Stella? =)

So I Havent Been Blogging...

2006-02-24T12:47:00.000-08:00

So I Havent Been Blogging...

so its been awhile... fret not.. im back.. i dunno wat happened to my tag... i will find sometime to do it 1 day... so what has changed since the last time i blogged? plenty!

1. its the new year... haha
2. i've straighten out my thoughts...
3. i havent jammed for 5 mths... and i suck!
4. i've stop drinking. kind of..
5. got into my first accident... pretty cool shit...
6. i'm crazier den ever.
7. i really like being crazy
8. im so crazy..... i cant think of anything more to write.. probably coz its 5am now.

anyway moving on to something more serious...

something happened today.. reminded me once again.. not all people can be trusted... its not a case of being stabbed in the back or something... its more of like pointing the finger to someone else just to cover their ass... not thinking abt the trouble they cause... well its has nv been in me to bear grudges or anything like tat.. so im letting it slide...

and yeah.. im sorry to yiwei.. my buddy.... im sorry i kinda lashed out... peace bro... i wont cap u.... hahaha..

.....

2005-10-09T15:02:00.000-07:00

read Stella's blog 2 days back.. hope she's alright...

its 6am.. cant sleep... cant put my troubles to words... anyway.. ive been staring at this blog post not knowing what to write for abt 20 mins? must be the lack of sleep... either that.. or i have a really boring life... its the damn holidays and i just waste myself at home... the only real event i did this week was to go drink at holland.. but.. i didnt actually "drink" cause i was driving... saw dephne there... finally had a proper conversation with her.. though i have known her since sec 3? was quite afraid of her.. no idea why... im so bored... i think i will just stop here...

One More Time...

2005-09-18T13:42:00.000-07:00

Auditions for powerjam went really well... we were tight... everything went smoothly... well except for our lead guitarist... minor mistake in his solo... well other than that.. i've got to say.. its great... well i did manage to overcome my stage fright.. probably because im hidden away... =p anyway... my hands and legs kinda went soft on me as i stepped up.. the result? somebody commented that the drums could have been louder... the band before us... B.A.R.B... man.. those guys... they were good... brought the whole place to life... with their rhastafarian music... totally SKA.. damn they're good.. we were just really unlucky to be behind them... well results of the auditions are'nt out yet.. so we just have to sit tight... well.. exams just round the corner... dont really wanna think abt anything else... just get my exams done with...

band..

2005-09-08T13:00:00.000-07:00

Kai says PowerJam is sometime next week... truth is i dont feel like playing.. but i have no choice.. exams round the corner.. im caught up in studies.. i have to practise.. alittle afraid i might screw up... argh... well anyway.. what will happen will.. cant avoid it.. if i step up on stage and go all weak... what can i say? blah... sara called me a few days ago.. told me about her troubles... she liking kenji but kenji nt liking her.. and there is another guy called mark who is also in the tennis team involved... she says she doesnt like mark... ahh.. why do i even give a fuck? im actually angry... i just cant bring myself to tell her.. fuck off... dun call me.. i dun wanna get involved in the shit u r in... what goes around comes around kenji doesnt like u? that is ur own damn fucking problem... dont come calling me.. pour ur troubles on me... argh... i can reherse this thousands of times but it just wont come out... argh... frustration... frustration kinda affects me in a really big way... even when it comes to bball.. somehow im just not making my shots.. this frustrates me even more.. damn i need to get a grip of myself..

the qns..

2005-08-31T10:32:00.000-07:00

what hurts more..? a cut? or the scar? think about it... well this qns has been bothering me for quite sometime... a cut hurts... everybody knows that... lets talk abt the scar then... everytime u look at it.. u're reminded of the pain... and the worst thing is... ITS ALWAYS THERE!!!!!! try to hide it... do watever u can.... but its still there... and it will always be there... put this into memories... u can say u have forgotten abt this.. but have u really? i know i havent.. sometimes bad memories can turn into anger.. probably hatred.. sounds scary right? i've not been doing good.. emotionally that is... everything is making me irate.. i need a place to vent this anger.. this frustration... but where? would u let me vent my anger on u? WOULD U!? wonder if its ok to feel so angry that u feel like puking...

lesson learnt

2005-08-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

I've come to realise alot of new things this week...
Lessons learnt...
1.) Open my eyes before choosing.
2.) The mind is always stronger than the heart
3.) Always get 2nd opinion
4.) Always prepare urself for the worst
5.) Things can change in a blink of an eye
6.) Treasure what you have
7.) Things doesnt always end the way u want it to
8.) Doesnt really matter if it doesnt
9.) Mistakes mistakes. learn from each and every single one
10.) And at the end of the day... i'll be a better person

so... whats with all this?
hmmm

choosing her was a mistake... think that things will change.. thats just me being so damn naive.. if i could just open my eyes... and see things clearly... listen to my frens' opinions.. i wouldnt have wasted my time and effort... but yet.. i let my heart take control.. this is not the first time... many years ago... i made the same mistake... lived to regret it till today..

a few days ago.. i nearly got into an accident... my car fish tailed when i was going really fast.. luckily i managed to counter steer and got the car in control and not damaging it in anyway.. in that split second... i learnt that.. things could just change... just like how she wanted out... bam... things change... ive learnt many things.. some of them i cant put to words... i take a look back and i see nothing but mistakes and more mistakes... somehow i never learn... wonder why.. hmm..

"Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die"
-Damien Rice

a mth

2005-07-28T13:18:00.000-07:00

wow.. didnt realise that has already been a mth since i last posted man... well.. where should i start.. hmm.. ok.. yday she told me that she wants a cool off.. says she feel likes she needs to commit to me.. hmm.. i dun really know what that means provided that she says she doesnt want to be together(thats y i had inverted commas in my last entry) and i have never forced her to.. its not that i dont want it... but if she is happier that way.. so be it.. think she doesnt really care about me anyway... it has always been the same.. why am i being played out... this shit aint right man.. well fuck that.. blah.. i do have feelings for her.. but from the start when she told me she had commitment problems.. i knew this isnt gonna last... but i still had feelings for her.. and all this while i hoped that i would change.. hmm.. guess i was wrong.. im not that sad.. wonder if its because of the no. of times i got played out.. or maybe i was already prepared for this day... doesnt really matter anyway... im not gonna get back with her.. for those who know... u know why.... well thats it for her.. next on the agenda... hmmmm... lets talk about cars... i love cars... cars are great... i love my dad's car man... though i wanted to get my own car... but i cant afford it.. so fuck it... my dad's car is great anyway... alittle underpowered.. probably due to the heavy chassis.. or maybe the engine is just weak.. a 1.6L face lift nissan sunny.. did some small mods to it... cold air intake and a new drop in K&N high flow filter.. did improve the pickup.. but overall im still not satisfied.. probably gonna change the exhaust soon.. cant really fight with surain's car or vickram's car.. though both are 1.6 l engines.. well watever man.. as long as it gets me from point A to point B.. i should be satisfied..

"The bamboo that bends is stronger than the oak that resists."
-Japanese Proverb

its been awhile

2005-06-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

its been awhile... well busy with my "gf" at least thats what i treat her to be.. but not for her anyway... things are getting complicated.. and i dont like it to be this way... i need someone to talk to.. some who can give me good advice... i hate this shit.. im wondering what makes a relationship last? say im old school but thats how i am.. im serious about this shit.. but why is it i get played out... fuck... im fucking pissed... fuck this shit... what should i do...

"Let the Devil wisper. Let the Devil take control."
Allianimus - Devote

1st week

2005-06-05T10:14:00.000-07:00

well the first week of school is over.. and so is the weekend... well.. the week has been quite fun for me... maybe its cause i have a really slack time table.. im just gonna enjoy this sem... take time off for bball.. for my family.. frens.. myself.. and hopefully.. be able to get a gf..? hahahahah im not desperate or anything.. just let nature take its course... whats bound to happen will...anyway.. i will have a bball competition coming up... looking forward to it.. playing with Cheesiang.. and some other pple that we met at the open ball session... have a few foreigners in the team as well... people who have much more experience then i do... hopefully i'll learn something from them... i just love the game... every single aspect of it.. haha.. im begining to talk crap... i shd go to slp now...

cant help..

2005-05-27T10:02:00.000-07:00

i cant help but feel sad.. can anyone help me? @#!$ hmm wtf am i doing here... just bored i guess... bye..

its over..

2005-05-19T08:54:00.000-07:00

Is it over? A part of me wants it to be.. whereas the other still clings on.. ive nv deleted any sms from my hp.. because i was afraid that i might del her sms's.. from the very first day i got this phone.. till now.. i have 3210 msgs.. and as im typing now 117 of those msgs are being erased.. ive read those time and time again.. i guess its time for me to let go now.. i wish her happiness... and its only right for me to do so.. =)

feelings..

2005-04-25T14:23:00.000-07:00

I have had alot to think about recently.. mostly about me.. the things ive done.. the things i might live to regret... and im gonna to stop something that has bothered the many years of my life.. i used to love doing that.. but it has also cost me someone i love with everything... therefore if decided to stop it and not look back... and ive also come to realise the path to self destruction cannot be blamed on anyone but myself.. ive no idea why i love doing it so much... some friends think im insane.. but its what i love to do... to feel life in my own hands... to choose... anyway.. ive also relearned a valuable lesson... trust... ive taught myself to only trust a person once... and if this trust is betrayed.. it will recieve a 2nd chance... probably im mean.. but its a lesson... and this lesson is applied to me... someone once trusted me... and i betrayed her trust not once but twice... im thankful that im given a 2nd chance.. and im not surprised i might not be given a third.. but i hope that she would give me just one more chance.. ive learned my lesson.. and i might live to regret it... for it is something that can only happen once in a lifetime... something that i want to hold on... something i will cherish... and if this chance comes.. pls.. let me know... and i wanna thank some special friends that are with me recently... auntie for lending her ears.. fuann, vick, roy and surain for the late nights up.. making me really tired.. so i wont think of anything else.. thanks... im really tired now... badminton till 5am? only u guys can make it happen..

An Angry Man

2005-04-19T14:47:00.000-07:00

I am 1 hell of an angry man.. i have no idea whats gone into me this past few days... i thought i've got rid of my temper... obviously i thought wrong... maybe its just not what i am.. ive always been surpressing it.. maybe its time to let it out now... just for awhile.. maybe i'll feel better.. luckly enough im able to control myself from actually physcially hurting anyone.. unfortunately i wont be able to say im not hurting myself.. maybe im sick in the mind.. can anyone help me? i juz freaked out fuann vick and roy in the badminton game just now... i just cant keep my anger at bay... im not angry with anyone or anything... maybe im just angry with myself... so many maybe's no definite answer...

argh....!!!!!!

Life....

2005-04-03T10:54:00.000-07:00

Life... does it hold a value? can it bought? can it be sold? a fren's father committed suicide 4 days back.. from what my mum told me.. he was in some kind of financial trouble.. when i was at the funeral.. Venessa told me that Zhaoxian's dad treated her better then her own dad... so i would guess that he should be quite a nice person... but in this world... does it pay to be nice? i wouldnt know... for a moment.. i put myself in Zhaoxian's shoes.. and thought abt the future... hopefully things will go fine for him.. Zhaoxian is a very strong guy... the 2nd day into the funeral.. was his TP test... and he passed.. today is his bday.. i didnt contact him today.. because i didnt know if he was allowed to celebrate... hope he feels better... when i was there.. i saw Venessa, Zhaoxian, Glenn and some others sobbing.. and i felt that there was nothing i can do to console them... well anyway... enuff of that... Few days ago.. Stella informed me that her attachment to Germany is coming soon... =/ aiya.. enuff for today.. exam's coming...

"Think not disdainfully of death, but look on it with favor; for even death is one of the things that Nature wills."
-Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

back

2005-03-25T10:56:00.000-08:00

Well im back after nearly a mth of MIA... if you are wondering why... i have no idea how to ans you.. cause i have no idea myself.. maybe its cause im too busy... or too lazy.. well whatever.. im back now.. makes no diff does it? =) its exam week soon... if im not wrong NP & Jcs has finished their exam's wk... argh.. i better start burying myself in books.. im not doing very well this sem... actually its not that bad.. just the CAD that is troubling me... i went drinking just now.. fun as usual just that a fren got drunk... hmmm let me see.. whats new this week... new song from the band called Fly Away... im getting more and more troubled... lots of personal stuff to deal with... and oh.. i watched A Walk To Remember yday nite... touching show... well to me at least... ah well.. time to game...

Happenings..

2005-03-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

Well the past couple of wks has been quite hectic... retests and my driving test... managed to get my driving test result 3 days after the test... it was posted on the bbdc website... the funny thing was that its stated PA which i didnt know what that meant.. of coz first insticts told me that PA means PAss but well its better to be sure... i asked a few friends and they told me it means that i have passed... lucky i guess... and on to friday... i missed my CAD retest becoz that blardy lecturer kicked me out of class on tues and didnt remind me or post the date on SP's webbie.. which kinda pissed me off... if i could make a list of pple that i wanna kill... he would be on the top of that list... Jammed on Sat.. new song called Cruel World... i like it alot.. some random stuff played that ended into a really nice song... hmmm well thats all last wk... this wk.. skipped school on monday... CAD lesson on tues was damn boring and i almost got kicked out of class after the break... that stupid lecturer asked me and Jan to throw our drinks away.. so obviously we have to finish it... but we thought since we were already stepped into the class before the break ended we could take alittle more time to finish our drinks... but NO... that fucker locked us out.. we entered from the other class and he was trying to lecture us by cracking some sacarstic joke about us going to NP to get our drinks thrown away... so i reacted with a sacarstic remark abt how funny the joke was.. and he told us if we were gonna abuse the break... no breaks for us den... ahh watever... which brings me to the song Cruel World.. everybody is in the paper chase now... 1 wrong move and you are out... but if that wasnt the case.. i would have killed the guy... and it got me thinking... as rebellious as i am... i still have to succumb to the society... Stella is right.. everybody is a slave of the society.. as much as i hate to admit it... im also a slave to society... and to fight it.. will result in nothing but your own demise... damn i fucking hate this shit...

"The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who at best, knows the triumph of high achievement; and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat."
-Theodore Roosevelt, "Citizen in a Republic", April 23, 1910

MIA

2005-02-20T10:27:00.000-08:00

MIA again.. ahahah.. well.. i wont say im busy.. im just lazy... =p well anyway... quite a number of things to talk about.. where should i start... hmm... i had dinner with Stella on vday... and i had pufferfish.. which looks like ba kua.. and taste like ba kua... well tats a first for me... pufferfish.. at least i know now i wont die from eating it.. i failed most of my MST papers.. which im gonna study for my retests coming up this week... spent friday lao-ing yusheng at a Jurong East restaurant and celebrating Richmond's bday... den straight to Holland V... Harry's this time.. den i think Auntie had some kinda arguement with Melvin or Richmond.. i didnt really get the head or the tail of the story... jamming on Sat afternoon... sending Eliz off evening.. kinda sad.. no idea why... saw the singapore idol ahbeng... forgot his name.. Sly or something.. and his fan club.. damn he walks funny... and all the girls are all excited abt seeing him... but the funny thing was... when it came to taking pics all of them were avoiding the camera.. no idea why.. its like.. being a fan.. yet afraid to take a photo with the idol... irony.. blah.. dinner at the airport.. happen to bump into Sheena and MingLong... and train back to jurong which along the way Gelly taught me sign langauge... pretty cool.. always wanted to learn that... well getting late.. nite...

CNY

2005-02-07T10:29:00.000-08:00

Wooo chinese new yr is juz round the corner... time for red packets and mandarin oranges.. well im nv quite into visiting houses to get red packets or visiting relatives.. its just boring.. got a few new clothings... sad to say.. i have to study during this time where everyone is enjoying themselves.. and ive been thinking if i shd get my tattoo or ipod after cny... blah watever.. maybe shd save up for rainy days.. hmm well im meeting my frens at pioneer if i can wake up.. so i guess i shd slp now.. nite..

Ordinary Day...

2005-02-01T09:46:00.000-08:00

Guess what... i skipped school again... ive got to stop doing this.... but i was really to damn tired... i thought about alot of things last nite... thoughts of Stella and Vicky mostly... and i just cant sleep... oh and i thought about the release of Winning Eleven 8 on the Xbox.. which i got today... and traded my Fifa 2004 for 20 bucks... quite a good deal... at least for me... im gonna try and get some sleep now.. i HAVE to go to school tml...

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Crestfallen Man...

2005-01-31T08:30:00.000-08:00

Was at Bishan today.. after school.. skipped the last lesson.. amazingly made it in time... during the visit... i felt a sudden sadness... again life... so fragile.. so unpredictable.. one moment she's here.. the next... she's gone... anyway... Stella has ignored me for 2 days.. i wonder if she is really angry... and that scares me... and.. i think she has a bf already... i'll be lying if i said i dun have feelings for her... =/ i dun feel very well today... must be due to the hot weather.. and wats been happening... i cant miss tml's lesson... i'll get barred... and i start thinking.. am i so weak? i dun have much responsibilites and im complaining already... compared to what others have been through... and their level of endurance... im nothing... argh...

The Past Week

2005-01-30T08:02:00.000-08:00

Jammed on friday.. did a new song.. called Peace.. didcated to Vicky.. hope that she has found peace... den i went to Holland v to drink... and i found out that Pam's mum has cancer... thoughts in the mind.. but i just put them to words... to console Pam.. all i can say is Pam u must stay strong.. Saturday was special.. i met up with Stella for dinner at NYDC.. and i sent her back... and she has decided to ignore me.. (hey dun get any indecent thoughts here... i didnt do anything...) after that.. i went to Clark Quay to drink again.. i just love to drink.. Had some beer.. and 2 chilli tequila wasnt as bad as what i heard.. well anyway... im going to visit Vicky tml.. gonna skip class again.. =/ the past week has thought me to treasure everyone around me... nobody is gonna be here forever.. and if there are things to say.. say it.. things to do.. do it... dont wait around... when someone is gone.. u wont be able to turn back time.. to help.. im gonna stop here.. time for bed....

"Love is the immortal flow of energy that nourishes, extends and preserves. Its eternal goal is life."
-Smiley Blaton

Ive Decided To Blog....

2005-01-26T13:00:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the mia.. ive decided that i shd start blogging... i will try to update as much as possible... but anyway... im here to blog now.. because i dun feel very good.. im devastated by Vicki's sudden death... i didnt get to see her.. i missed out on her funeral... im just totally shocked... but may she find peace... Sam showed me some pics of her.. and it kinda made me think abt the photos she took... of all journals ive read on multiply.. hers was the most interesting.. lots of artistic photos.. im gonna miss all those...

"They shall not grow old, as we that are left grow old.
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun, and in the morning,
We shall remember them."
-Laurence Binyen, For the Fallen.

Blog Update

2004-12-19T09:13:00.000-08:00

Everybody is asking me.. y i dont update my blog... personally i dunno wat 2 write... and i have no time.. so i will do so asap bear with me...

Life of Allianimus

2004-12-08T17:31:00.000-08:00

My life in a blog...